And we’re back

This week. Oh. My. God.

I started training for student staff life on this last monday and it has been way more stressful than I had imagined. I was thinking it would be better because I had gone through it already, but they are implementing major changes within the university and I have a completely new staff, so I feel a little uprooted right now. My anxiety has been at full force non stop since I arrived and it is exhausting. And one of my best friends has been really awful to me lately and when I actually responded, she got mad and isn’t speaking to me. This adds another level of frustration on to training. Ugh.

This means that my food hasn’t been consistent, and I have been stress eating. I am trying my hardest to make those food vegetables and salads as much as possible, but I am still working to find my rhythm.

I have been on the couch to 5k and have made it to THREE minutes of running! (Whoooooo Whooooo Ehooooooo) So I have been trying to do that in the mornings. 

Things are things and blech. 

CW: 161.0 (A gain from vacation, but working to bring it back down)

CGW: 145.0

UGW: 130

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We teach girls to shrink themselves, to make themselves smaller. We say to girls, ‘You can have ambition, but not too much. You should aim to be successful, but not too successful. Otherwise you will threaten the man.’ Because I am female, I am expected to aspire to marriage. I am expected to make my life choices always keeping in mind that marriage is the most important. Now marriage can be a source of joy and love and mutual support. But why do we teach girls to aspire to marriage and we don’t teach boys the same? We raise girls to see each other as competitors – not for jobs or for accomplishments, which I think can be a good thing, but for the attention of men. We teach girls that they cannot be sexual beings in the way that boys are.

We teach girls to shrink themselves, to make themselves smaller. We say to girls, ‘You can have ambition, but not too much. You should aim to be successful, but not too successful. Otherwise you will threaten the man.’ Because I am female, I am expected to aspire to marriage. I am expected to make my life choices always keeping in mind that marriage is the most important. Now marriage can be a source of joy and love and mutual support. But why do we teach girls to aspire to marriage and we don’t teach boys the same? We raise girls to see each other as competitors – not for jobs or for accomplishments, which I think can be a good thing, but for the attention of men. We teach girls that they cannot be sexual beings in the way that boys are.

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emerlyslimmingdowwwn:

Feeling hella proud this week. I worked hard this week and last, and my results are really showing, and it feels good. It feels so good. 

This is the lowest weight I’ve been since high school. And I graduated high school ten years ago. This is the lowest weight I’ve been in a decade. So, high five for myself. And really, high five to you folks for encouraging me! Hoping this is going to be a nice little streak!